God’s Loan

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding” (Proverbs 3:5) Moms God wants us to trust him. Do not beat yourselves up trying to find reason for your loss. God blessed you with a life for a while, it really was a loan. You have loved your baby the best that you could and now its time to return your baby to his/her heavenly father. There is no greater love! Job well done Mom…

More in Store!

Hello guys it has been a while! I have been working behind the scenes on MM to understand what it is that God will have be do for you during your time of need. Please stay tune…

Good Morning Moms!

Life has been a roller coaster! However we have to stand, position ourselves to be rooted in faith and the word of God. It is the only way to cope with such a devastating loss and to begin rebuilding what has now become the “New Norm” for our lives without our babies. Be encouraged and take it one day at a time. “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things”. Matthew 6:34

Happy Birthday AJ

Happy Birthday to this adored Angel. When I bought my first home I needed home insurance. In my quest I met the coolest, most caring sales person I have ever encountered. Over the years we became friendly, we always kind of fell back in touch for one reason or another. On December 4, 2013 she lost her son. We had then became destined to be connected forever. I now call her Sister. Today is a celebration of AJ’s life, his gifts, his purpose, his journey. I would like to share a Mourning Mom’s remembrance of the day God sent her Angel in her own words…”Nov 20, 1985, my mom and dad were working at Ft Meade at the time. Kia was ready to turn 1 in 10 days, my life was about to change forever, but we just didn’t know how much. At approximately, 8:15 I went into labor, no one was home except Kia and myself and she certainly couldn’t drive. I called my sister-in-law, Crystal Carpenter, her car was down so she walked to my house and drove me on the bumpiest ride to the hospital I had ever experienced!! after 30 minutes of labor HE ARRIVED !! my baby boy!!! He was just the silliest kid, but hilarious, he loved life and was determine to experience everything it had to offer. He was my ride or die, my dude, my biggest cheerleader and I love him so much. He lives forever in our hearts. I am sad that everyone didn’t get to know his heart for it was a great one… HAPPY BIRTHDAY AJ, WE LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER! UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, KEEP WATCHING OVER US!!!!!! XOXOXOXOXOX (drops mic to walk off and have a moment)”

Isaiah 41:10 fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

About a week ago…..

On that night I was surprisingly acknowledged for “The Work that I am going to do”…God gave a special woman a vision over my life. He assigned her the job to convey just that to me…she is quite obedient. And I honor her for that. When I got home I wanted to post some pictures of the phenomenal evening, but I began to pray and ask for guidance, for direction, for courage, for knowledge, for strength. You see I wanted to create “Mourning Moms” and “Shades of Shai, SOS” but my vision was limited. I was not sure which to pursue first. Sort of like an artist’s 1st single off an amazing album…I was tagged with an inbox from an old friend “Call Me 911”  After speaking to her my purpose became more clear…”Mourning Moms” is where the Lord wants me. Outreach, motivation, encouragement is what he assigned upon me. But the assignment became more clear, “Mourning Moms” is not just for mothers who has lost a child.  As mother’s we mourn for our children’s welfare, their well- being, as well as their lives everyday. It is natural, that we want to protect them from life’s heartache and heartbreak. Mourning Moms is a support group to support Mother’s who are suffering from the lost of death, illness, incarceration, environment, peer pressure, and or abandonment. We are Mourning Moms…

But God…

When Shai went away everything changed for me. My hopes, my dreams, even my will to live had come to a sudden end. But God…I began to somehow dream of concepts to carry on her life, her legacy. I hoped to start a non-profit organization, a blog, a home for patient’s families…it appeared to be mere baffle…But God